Shameful and Obscene/ F. Scott Fitzgerald

 

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He wonders frequently whether he is not without honor and slightly mad, a shameful and obscene thinness glistening on the surface of the world like oil on a clean pond, these occasions being varied, of course, with those in which he thinks himself rather an exceptional young man, thoroughly sophisticated, well adjusted to his environment, and somewhat more significant than any one else he knows. This was his healthy state and it made him cheerful, pleasant, and very attractive to intelligent men and to all women. In this state he considered that he would one day accomplish some quiet subtle thing that the elect would deem worthy and, passing on, would join the dimmer stars in a nebulous, indeterminate heaven half-way between death and immortality. Until the time came for this effort he would be Anthony Patch—not a portrait of a man but a distinct and dynamic personality, opinionated, contemptuous, functioning from within outward—a man who was aware that there could be no honor and yet had honor, who knew the sophistry of courage and yet was brave.

From “The Beautiful and Damned,” by F. Scott Fitzgerald

 

Fitzgerald describes the pathetic upper-class youth of the beginning of the Twentieth Century.  He does it with a refined prose.  He writes, “He wonders frequently whether he is not without honor and slightly mad, a shameful and obscene thinness glistening on the surface of the world like oil on a clean pond.” It makes me wonder how such a confused generation of men and women left a better world for us all. Of course, it took two world wars. Society pays for its mistakes as each of us does. Sooner or later, more often later, the pendulum falls back into place.